Sick...

So the last couple of days I've been feeling like shit. Most likely because of the pregnancy because I'm just to tired and nauseous.

I have another doctor's appointment tomorrow. I'm 16 weeks as of Friday, so I'm wondering if I"m going to be able to hear the heartbeat this time. The Husband is going to be taking me to the appointment, as he's been trying to do. He missed so much last time that now that he's around for all of these things, he's trying to be able to take me to the various appointments that I need to be taken to.

I had a dream, not too long ago, that the baby was going to be a boy. This pregnancy is totally different from my last one, so maybe it is a boy. I'm, hopefully, going to be able to find out the sex at my next ultrasound appointment, which is the beginning of August. I honestly kind of want a little boy, as I already have a girl. It will round out our little family just nicely, I think. Of course, I want a healthy baby first and foremost, but having a little boy would be nice.

Predator Baby?

I had my first ultrasound on Friday morning. It was pretty good. Being 11 weeks along at the time, the baby still looked somewhat bean-like. The Husband was able to see it as well. He said that it looked like the Predator, because the hands were up by the face. I still find that a little funny.

Not as Good the Second Time...

Just at the title implies.

The Husband and I decided that we would treat ourselves to some KFC last night. It was all good until I decided that washing his combats would be a good idea. You see, they were very stinky. And I got a BIG wiff of a shirt as he threw it to me. It was one of the stinkier pieces of clothing that I have smelled. Needless to say, I made a bee-line for the bathroom and the toilet.

My poor husband. He wasn't quite sure as to what he was supposed to do. He stood a little behind me and asked if I was okay. I answered with a feeble, "no," and started to cry a little bit. He rubbed my shoulders and tried to make me feel better while I cried to the porceline gods.

Other than that, I've just been feeling quite tired. I guess that it's from taking care of The Child during the day and being pregnant. I can't remember being this tired by the end of the day for the last pregnancy. Or maybe I was and I just can't remember. I don't know...

I can't wait for the first trimester to be over though... I want to be able to take out my garbage without having to vomit and gag the wholel way. And I hope that my energy will pick up as well.

*sigh*

I can say that this time around, it's definitly different. I'm not going to get the chances to relax and just take a load off because I have almost two-year-old running around the house. The best that I can do is nap when she is napping, but that's when I do most of my housework... I just can't win.

Morning sickness sucks...

As the title to this post says, morning sickness sucks. I"m almost constantly gagging on anything. Okay... Not everything, but practically everything that has a disgusting scent. Which at this moment is everything in my kitchen. I swear, I cleaning that mother fucker out a couple of time, removed the garbage and food, and I can still find something to almost vomit over.

The Husband tries not to laugh. And asks if I'm okay. But sometimes it's just so random that I occaisionally hear a little laugh while I run to the bathroom to make sure I don't vomit all over the floor. But knowing how upset my stomach has been, he goes out and gets me soem ginger ale and crackers, hoping that it will make me feel better. And just the gesture helps me out a little bit. :)

I've also been so tired as of late. Last night we went to a BBQ at The Husband's Sargeant's house. We got home around 8:30-ish and I went to bed almost right after The Child was in bed. I was just so wiped. I slept until 8:00 this morning. I don't feel like going to bed right now (it's only about 10:25PM), but I can feel it coming soon.

So, this pregnancy is going as expected so far. My OB/GYN is the same person I had when I gave birth to The Child, and my first appointment with him is Thursday. Then I have and ultrasound for dating a week after that.

For this pregnancy, I'm kind of excited that The Husband is going to be able to experience more than he did last time. He's going to be here, and hopefully not on any courses. He said he was going to try and make it for the OB/GYN appointment.

Here's to a healthy pregnancy! XD

New Pregnancy

So, this pregnancy, so far as I can remember, is turning out a lot different than my first one. So far, I'm having more cramping and lower back pain. The Husband thinks that it's because I don't remember what it was like, but I think that I would remember being this uncomfortable. No matter what I do, I can't seem to make my back feel better, and it not like I can take any drugs for it.

I have an appointment with my GP tomorrow afternoon and he's going to point me in the direction of an OB/GYN. And that is going to be the beginning of the craziness that is the pre-natal care.

I'm not too sure as to what to think about this pregnancy right now. Of course I am happy, but I can't help but worry about what the future is going to hold with two kids to take care of. I know that it's been done, lots of people that more than one kid, but I can't help but worry about the future. Good thing that pregnancies are 9 months long, or I don't know what I would do.

Well...

Wish me luck on my adventure.

I'm going to try to update this more with my thoughts and what's going on.

OMFG

I'm just going to blert it out for the sake of being blunt.

I'm pregnant again.

There, I said it.

It's definitely a little shock, but not really because we haven't been using birth control.

Life is really going to be crazy now. So much more is going to have to be sacrificed for this new child. But despite my worries, I'm kind of excited to be a mom again. The Child #1 is going to be 2 in September and I calculated that I'm not due until the end of December/beginning of January.

Crappy weather...

God. the weathe so SO nice out yesterday amd today... It sucks ass! It's all cloudy and there's a chance of rain and stuff. Not fun. I wanted to bring The Child to the park again today.

Yesterday at the park, The Child didn't really like the swings. At first she liked it. And then I guess she got scared and wouldn't let go of my arm so I could push her. But she did like stabbing the sand with a stick though.

Maybe we will end up going to the park. it doesn't look like it's going to rain...

OH I SEE THE SUN PEAKING OUT FROM BEHIND A CLOUD!

Yah... Easily amused.

First. Lunch... But that's after The Child wakes up. XD

God my writing sucks...

I just posted a drabble in response to a contest on Eternal Destiny... After reading the other story that was posted before mine, I have this sinking feeling that my story sucks major ass.

Maybe that's my over whelming poor self esteem, but yah. Suckage. I'd be lucky if I get any reviews.

Headachy

It's Saturday and I have a killer headache right about now. Not too fun. I have to be up because The Child is awake, running around and doing her thing. The Husband is sleeping, apparently he didn't sleep well last night.

I feel like shit...

Fuck...

Rainy Day Go Away...

It's raning. I don't really like the rain. I know that it helps things to grow and flourish, but it just makes the day look so dreary and sad. It also means that I'm stuck inside with the Child. She seems okay right now, but I know that she likes to go outside to play (what child doesn't?).

SO my plans are thus:

- Clean up the garbage that the raccoons got at on the deck
- Do the dishes from last night
- Keep The Child entertained through all of this
- Make sure The Husband has clean combats and PT cloths for when her returns to work tomorrow.

It doesn't look like a lot of things to do, but with a 19 month old running around, who knows what craziness is going to occur?

Wish me luck!

On another note, I'm reading Ella Enchanted after finding it as a PDF online last night. I loved that book when I was younger, so I'm just reading it now for shits and giggles. It's not very long so I'll probably be able to finish it sometime today, so then I can get back to reading the Sookie Stackhouse series.

Happy Easter XD

So today is Easter Sunday and since it's one of those holidays that you go and have a big dinner, we went to The In-Law's place for turkey dinner. It was a good meal, I was busy helping in the kitchen for most of the morning and afternoon. The day was a long one but it was also kind of short. We got over to the In-Laws in the morning, around 10:30, which is early for us, and we're usually late for thing (because The Husband takes after his perpetually late mother).

I got The Child a couple of small things for Easter. Nothing to special as she is only 19 months old. An outfit, some sidewalk chalk, and a stuffed animal. When she saw it all in her Easter basket, it was kind of cute.

Right now, I'm just winding down from the day. True Blood is going to be on soon. I'm really liking that show. I like vampire stories and the such, and it's refreshing to see something that is more following vampire lore as opposed to sparkley vamps. (I HATE Twilight).

Tomorrow the Husband is still home from work, until Thursday. So hopefully he doesn't put that much of a cramp into my daily life until then. LOL

Things are looking up.

I just got off the phone with the local Timmy's. I have an interview tomorrow afternoon. :) I know that I'm excited over an interview at a coffee place but it's at least something. It pays minimum wage, which is over $10/hr now. I really hope that I get the job. It would REALLY help us out every month with the extra income I would be bringing in.

Life's stresses

Money just makes life so much more stressful than it needs to be. Honestly I think that money is the reason that I am so stressed out. Do we have enough for the bills? Food? Diapers? Gas? Sometimes it just gets to be so much that I'm not sure I can handle it.

I need to get a job. That is a definite. The husband doesn't pull in enough to cover all of our expenses and for us to put away money to save. We're living from paycheque to paycheque and it's hard sometimes. I honestly don't even think that we have enough to get the child a little something as an Easter present.

So getting a job is getting to be a bit of an issue. When we moved back to the Hometown, I applied to get my job back at the call centre. They don't want me back for some reason. I have no idea what I did wrong as to why they wouldn't want me back. As far as I know I was a good employee, had good stats and quality. I was talking to a friend that still works there and he's not too sure what the problem could be as well. Since he loves me <3, he's going to look into it for me. I have applied to other places. mostly things in my field, since I have a business diploma. I haven't heard back from anyone of them. The other day I had to finally drop my standards and apply at a Tim Horton's. Hopefully I get a call from SOMEONE for a job. It's not fun living like this.

And now to top it all off, I think that I'm getting carpal tunnel because my wrist is just KILLING me as I'm writing this post.

FUCK!

Update: The Week So Far

As my life is at it's pinnacle of dullness. I'll probably won't be able to update as much as I would like to.

Saturday night was pretty fun. The Ceili was cool. They were showing how to do some of the Irish dances. The Husband got up and danced with his aunt. We left before he got me to join the dancing. But didn't hesitate to mention that the next time that we do go (if there is a next time) I'm going to be dancing. I just hope that when that time comes, I won't make a complete and utter ass out of myself.

The first half of this week has been pretty uneventful. The weather has been gorgeous so I've been taking The Offspring out to play in the sun. As expected, she loves it. She has taken to throwing the rocks from the driveway into the mud puddles that are around. She also enjoys walking through the puddles. At least they're not too deep or there would have been more of a mess for me to clean up.

My evenings have been low key. I'm trying to get back into writing some fanfiction. I have several started, but I have never been able to finish a serial fiction beyond a couple of chapters. I have an idea that I think might be pretty good for an InuYasha fanfic - AU not canon - but I'm not too sure as to where I'm going to start. I guess I just need to sit down, start writing and see what comes out. I have an Escaflowne/InuYasha crossover fic in the works, maybe I should try and give that one a little more work... Hmmm

Well...

Anyway...

Yah...

Caleigh

Tomorrow night we're going to a Caleigh. It's basically a Celtic dance for those who aren't too sure what it is. It's kind of formal, so I've been running aorund my room part of today trying to find something to wear. Too bad most of my nice clothes hadn't fit since I got pregnant two years ago.

I did throw something together. It looks okay, but I'm still going shopping with the MIL tonight to try and find soemthing else. Hopfeully It goes okay.

I'm actually kind of excited for this. I seems interesting. I've been told that there's going to be dancing and a meal. I have a cute dress picked out for the baby. It's a plaid dress so it kind of goes along with the Celtic theme.

This is going to be SO FUN

High School Drama and Other Things

Last night was a change from the normal monotony that usually consumes my life. I had two friends from high school come and visit. And to be honest it was an awesome night. We talked about what's going on in life, remembered high school, and gossiped a bit about those who we don't really hang out with that much.

My girlfriend had brought her son with her, and he was playing with my daughter. Theyr are a year apart so it was interesting to see them interacting. It kind of made me want another kid. LOL. At one point during the night, they were hugging! It was so cute. Too bad I forgot where I had put my camera, because I would have that picture as my desktop background.

During the night we got on the subject of the drama in our lives. Everyone has it. My girlfriend is separated from her husband right now, I have told her that I"ll be there for suppor if she needs it or wants to talk. Well someone found out and proceeded to write nasty messages to her via Facebook. They were the kind of thing that you would expect in high school. It was completely stupid. Last time I checked we were out of high school and in our fucking twenties. It seems that stupid shit like that cannot leave us. It's just so frustraing sometimes.

In other news, I really want FFXIII. Whether or not I get it is up to my husband. We're both gamers so it might be a possibility, but he doesn't like JRPGs like I do. He thinks that I should play some of the other games that he got me but don't really play. The problem with those games are that I"m not really into them. I've tried to play, but it just doesn't get to me. I've kind of adopted the same thing with games as when someone buys me a book: I have to choose what it is. I have gotten books from my MIL and my hisband that I have tried to read but cannot finish. Same with the games. I like choosing what I'm going to play.

Well, hopefully I get the game at some point... Or my husband renews my WoW subscription.

Cross your fingers!

Corey Haim - Dead at the age of 38

So, I haven't been much of a Corey Haim fan, and didn't really watch a lot of his movies and such. But it's always sad to hear that someone has passed and because he was in the public eye, it touches more people than I can imagine.

Even though the ahy day of his career was in the eighties (when I was born), he was still a famous person. But also, he had a family and friends that are going to miss him. Sure he struggled with substance abuse, which in the end killed him, he was still loved by those who called him family.

I always find it interesting when a celebrity passes, because it reminds me that everybody reaches the end of their life. Celebrities are no different - they may immortalized by their work, but their lives will eventually end.

I'm going to take this time to send out my condolences to the friends and family of Corey Haim.

The beginng of something new...

Good day internet people.

For all intensice purposed, my name is C.A. and I am a military wife. My husband is in the Canadian Forces. It's not an easy life by far and I have decided that I'm going to try and blog about my experiences and the things that we are going through.

I'm usually not much of a blogger, but I am hoping that I will be able to touch some people and let them know that others may be experiencing what they are.

With any luck, this is going to be the first of many posts.