Almost Afghanistan

Just as the title explains.  My Dear Husband almost got sent over to Afghanistan for this coming March.  While it was assumed that he was going, I was freaking out a little bit.  I would be home, alone, with two small children for the better part of 9 months, which is how long the tour would have been.

Needless to say, now that he isn't going, I'm quite please.  The only good thing to come out of  a tour overseas is really the increase in money coming in.  We would have been great financially, but to me money isn't really worth the possibility of losing my husband. 

I guess that's very selfish of me.  Sometimes, I just want to be selfish, though.  He's my husband, and I wanted him home and not anywhere else.  If he would have gone, he would have missed our daughter's first day of school, a pretty big milestone for her.  I have grown up with a father in the forces, and the amount of things that he couldn't be there for...  there's no words for it.

I respect every single person who does go overseas, and everyone who has family.  You are doing what you need to do.  I'm just glad that I don't have to watch my husband go away.

SO, I'm thinking that tonight is a good night for a glass or two of wine. I'm not really much of a drinker, but I think that partaking in a little every now and then isn't too bad.

As of right now, I'm pretty bored. I ran out of WoW time this week and haven't gotten another pre-paid card, so that's out of the question. I've been playing some Facebook games in the meantime. Dungeon Overlords is fun and I've been playing Cityville for a couple of months now. Yah, I know I'm a loser, but who really cares?

I've been trying to find good fanfic to read and they're definitly few and far between. The ones that I really like and get into usually don't see updates often and sometimes they're dead. Kind of sucks. I remember reading an Escaflowne fic a long time ago where is begins with Hitomi trying to kill herself and thus gets sent to Gaea and Van. It was good, but it wasn't finished and now I can't find it anymore. Another fic that I really liked was Escaflowne: The Continuation. It had it's own site (and this was back when I first started watching Escaflowne back in 2001). Of course it's dead, and it wasn't even finished when I was reading it. So many good fics. Right now my fave AU Esca auther is Sapphirefly. I really like her stuff. I sat down and read one of her stories (all 160 000 word of it) in one day. It was crazy.

I'm currently trying to write some of my own fanfics. I currently have 3 unfinished and 2 that I'm actively working on. I have so many ideas in my head that I get frustrated when I go to actually write them down. But I am going to make an effort to update and finish the pieces that I'm working on. It's hard though when you don't get the reviews that you think you should be getting. I like to get reviews, it makes me feel that people are reading and liking it. If you get 20 hits and only 1 person reviews, did the other 19 think that it just blew chunks?

This week I'm going to try and make sure that my house gets clean. I've been lacking in the whole housework thing, and I think that it's pissing off The Husband. I can understand why he doesn't like it: I'm at home all day, no job and he does have a job and works quite hard during the day. I'm working on fixing my 'give-a-fuck' because it's kind of broken right now.

*sigh*

Okay.

Now to find something to do tonight. ^_^

Long Time, No Post

Yah... So, for some reason I kind of forgot that I had this... Whatever.

Since the last time that I had written in this blog, I have had my second child. The Husband and I had a little boy and he was born January 1, 2011. So now we have one of each, a girl and a boy. Our daughter seems to like the new addition enough. She tries to help when he cries and want to feed him and such. She's still only 2 years old, but I let her know that I like seeing her help.

Life has been pretty uneventful aside from the whole adding a new person to our little family. I'm looking into finding some work so that we can start getting ahead and not just getting by. I'm not happy about it, but it needs to be done. I want to be able to give or ids things and not have to depend on anybody else for some things.

Sick...

So the last couple of days I've been feeling like shit. Most likely because of the pregnancy because I'm just to tired and nauseous.

I have another doctor's appointment tomorrow. I'm 16 weeks as of Friday, so I'm wondering if I"m going to be able to hear the heartbeat this time. The Husband is going to be taking me to the appointment, as he's been trying to do. He missed so much last time that now that he's around for all of these things, he's trying to be able to take me to the various appointments that I need to be taken to.

I had a dream, not too long ago, that the baby was going to be a boy. This pregnancy is totally different from my last one, so maybe it is a boy. I'm, hopefully, going to be able to find out the sex at my next ultrasound appointment, which is the beginning of August. I honestly kind of want a little boy, as I already have a girl. It will round out our little family just nicely, I think. Of course, I want a healthy baby first and foremost, but having a little boy would be nice.

Predator Baby?

I had my first ultrasound on Friday morning. It was pretty good. Being 11 weeks along at the time, the baby still looked somewhat bean-like. The Husband was able to see it as well. He said that it looked like the Predator, because the hands were up by the face. I still find that a little funny.

Not as Good the Second Time...

Just at the title implies.

The Husband and I decided that we would treat ourselves to some KFC last night. It was all good until I decided that washing his combats would be a good idea. You see, they were very stinky. And I got a BIG wiff of a shirt as he threw it to me. It was one of the stinkier pieces of clothing that I have smelled. Needless to say, I made a bee-line for the bathroom and the toilet.

My poor husband. He wasn't quite sure as to what he was supposed to do. He stood a little behind me and asked if I was okay. I answered with a feeble, "no," and started to cry a little bit. He rubbed my shoulders and tried to make me feel better while I cried to the porceline gods.

Other than that, I've just been feeling quite tired. I guess that it's from taking care of The Child during the day and being pregnant. I can't remember being this tired by the end of the day for the last pregnancy. Or maybe I was and I just can't remember. I don't know...

I can't wait for the first trimester to be over though... I want to be able to take out my garbage without having to vomit and gag the wholel way. And I hope that my energy will pick up as well.

*sigh*

I can say that this time around, it's definitly different. I'm not going to get the chances to relax and just take a load off because I have almost two-year-old running around the house. The best that I can do is nap when she is napping, but that's when I do most of my housework... I just can't win.

Morning sickness sucks...

As the title to this post says, morning sickness sucks. I"m almost constantly gagging on anything. Okay... Not everything, but practically everything that has a disgusting scent. Which at this moment is everything in my kitchen. I swear, I cleaning that mother fucker out a couple of time, removed the garbage and food, and I can still find something to almost vomit over.

The Husband tries not to laugh. And asks if I'm okay. But sometimes it's just so random that I occaisionally hear a little laugh while I run to the bathroom to make sure I don't vomit all over the floor. But knowing how upset my stomach has been, he goes out and gets me soem ginger ale and crackers, hoping that it will make me feel better. And just the gesture helps me out a little bit. :)

I've also been so tired as of late. Last night we went to a BBQ at The Husband's Sargeant's house. We got home around 8:30-ish and I went to bed almost right after The Child was in bed. I was just so wiped. I slept until 8:00 this morning. I don't feel like going to bed right now (it's only about 10:25PM), but I can feel it coming soon.

So, this pregnancy is going as expected so far. My OB/GYN is the same person I had when I gave birth to The Child, and my first appointment with him is Thursday. Then I have and ultrasound for dating a week after that.

For this pregnancy, I'm kind of excited that The Husband is going to be able to experience more than he did last time. He's going to be here, and hopefully not on any courses. He said he was going to try and make it for the OB/GYN appointment.

Here's to a healthy pregnancy! XD